I didn't email my T one word about last session. I did email her once, asking a scheduling question, and another time for no good reason, but I never mentioned my last session.

So, what I noticed was that the lack of email contact bothered me more than not discussing my last session. My T answered my scheduling question and wished me a good weekend. That's all. Also, since I didn't email much, I don't feel so connected to her. I will tell her that tomorrow. I didn't like not having more of an interaction with her. If this is what independence feels like, I'm not ready!!

I am going to have to tell her my reactions to last session and jump in where I left off. I want it to be a productive session but if she suggests losing 20 pounds again like it's so simple, I think I'm going to scream! She also mentioned my bad posture for the first time ever, and I felt triggered because my parents used to say, " You're so pretty, but you need to stand up straight." I told T I hate the way I look, and she was being practical but I wanted to be understood, not offered advice. Her advice is good but it's hard to put into practice. Plus, now I know she has noticed the way I sit for 6 years. That makes me feel humiliated, embarrassed, and ashamed. For me, this subject is harder to talk about than sex! For once, I'm NOT looking forward to my session.