I'm so tired all the time. My walls are always up, the mask always on. Can't trust anyone - every time I do it bites me in the *****. The new/interim T asked me where I saw myself in 5 years... I had to laugh. I said, "Good question, dead." I can barely see past next month, let alone 5 years. I certainly can't see myself living like this for 5 years. I want out.