My mother resents me for being autistic. I am really lonely, sometimes it gets painful and my chest hurts so bad. I probably won't ever have a normal life with a wife and kids and a job. I'm trying to get in touch with people, I really do try to get through the day. Just keep going, Askildsen, don't give up. I f you have to use all you energy on staying alive and coping, that's fine. At least you're not destroying nations or mass murdering people!