nobody talks to me either. Only go out if have to go to the store or to Dr. Appts. Even our own blood relatives never talk to me. They talk around, spread rumors, and lies..never ask to my face. i get panicked everywhere cuz i see ppl busy talking and llaughin budy going to from work friends dinners events. They look happy and healthy. I know they got their own probs too, but someone in here used to know how to function at least a little.. i have memories of then, but it wasnt me who knew how to just get and do whatever, or how to be around other ppl and pretend to ne like them. I know it wasnt me cuz, i never knew how to do any of that.... I look at papers and files from long ago and leases and paychecks and bankstatements and term paper all marked A and pictures of parties and friends smiling and laughing and i know i have seen them before, but none of it is mine. I dont understand any of it. And the fact that we are all seeming nonfunctional now, i know is my fault.. cuz i am always sad and scared and crying... Now instead of functioning they spend all their time and energy just trying to keep me from dragging us idk where... but its my fault. I understand how you feel, M.