im really impressed! most people arent able to admit things like that, and even more people arent able to realize or accept the thought of what it is theyve done. it takes a lot of strength to take the responsibility and ownership of your actions.

I know how it feels to feel like you deserve to be punished. sometimes it gets to a point that ive realized ive punished myself for much longer than any other person would of done at me. and i wish i knew the right words to help in this situation.
i want to tell you not to beat yourself up about it, however i also know that its a lot more complicated than just a "please dont do that".

i believe that punishment is meant to make sure we dont do it again, but sometimes ive found that the worrying about the punishment can be the punishment. meaning it passes up what the actual punishment would of been like.

youre a good person... one action, or a billion action doesnt change that. everyone deserves to be treated with respect. which is really out of some of our comfort zones. but its true.
you seem very mature