It it more of a "don't want to live" thing or a "want to die"thing? Because I've found that they're two different things. I often wish I wasn't living, but I also don't want to die.

If it's a "don't want to live" thing- I'm sorry about what's going on in your life that would make something like that seem like it would be better. I find that whenever I get the urge to hurt myself, I work on breathing deeply and taking myself to a place that's not *quite* living. I'm really out of it, but I'm not hurting myself, and I've curved that urge to die.

If it's a "want to die" thing, I'm incredibly sorry about how you feel and what makes you think that dying is better than living. Remember the people in your life that care, and the kind of loss and devastation they would feel if you were gone. Again, my breathing technique works for me. Also, if it helps, for a while I was doing something where if I made a healthy decision, I would snap my fingers- someone here mentioned it to me a while ago, and it helped.

I'm not saying that the suicidal urges are going to stop altogether, but it's a careful game of chess. If you find a relaxation and treatment technique that works for you, don't hesitate to use it. It's dangerous.

If you feel like no one else cares, remember that I do and that I'll be very sad if you're gone.