Thanks for the hugs. I'm afraid T and I will argue today. I want a reality check on my appearance. I don't think I really look as awful as some of my photos, but maybe I do! I don't know what to believe about myself and it's hard to make T understand. Maybe it's black and white thinking? I'm either ugly or pretty. I'm probably in between but do the photos lie that much? This is so pathetic because I know what is inside matters more, but I'm stuck!! I'm ashamed of caring so much. Does anyone have ideas about how to tell T the problem? Last week she tried to ask " is there a part of your body you like?" but I insisted on her looking at my "fat photos". That's when she suggested better posture.

I'm scared more than ever, of discussing this with T!! Please, someone, respond to this post.