((((((( Rainne )))))))
I only just read this. I wasn't adopted (at least I don't think so) but there were secrets to the extreme in the "family" of origin. The family had a hard time showing love and that is putting it kindly

And abuse which I will not go into

. Anyone would have trust issues being "raised" in such an "environment".
I hope you're seeing a good T... A Good T can really help