She would tell me that what happened wasn't my fault, that children aren't bad for no good reason, that I reacted the only way I knew how, that I deserve to be happy now, that I am worth investing in, that she would be with me, that I didn't need to do this alone, that my needs are important, that I can do this.

Not only do i not hear those things from new T, there are a couple of more specific examples. I was scared during a session with new T that she would shout at me and I know old T would have told me that she wouldn't, that it was OK. My belief that I shouldn't be heard came up with new T and I know old T would have told me that I did have a right to be heard, that everyone has that right. It is like I know these things but can't convince myself or make myself believe them, if that makes sense to you. Hearing old T reassuring me helped me in that way.

I know I am comparing the two and that they will never be the same but this seems important to me.