Why are you waiting for marriage?

Here's what I can offer. The notion of feminine purity is damaging and wrong. Women are sexual and wonderful just as they are. Women are human just like you. You may feel at a disadvantage to a woman with sexual experience. Maybe you still feel insecure about your body, even with the big changes. Maybe you feel insecure about your sexual abilities and inexperience and you want a virgin so that you don't have to live up to higher expectations and you both can learn together. But if you're honest about your feelings with a woman and tell her that you want to learn how to please her, your sexual inexperience won't matter. My advice is to find a woman you really enjoy being with and who makes you feel good about yourself, and don't worry about how many sexual partners she's had. IT DOES NOT MATTER. If she's right for you, she'll accept you. And when you get good at pleasing her (which you need to learn how to do) you won't care at all that she's been with someone else. You'll feel good together. Don't waste your life feeling inadequate. Don't dig the hole deeper. Let go of the steering wheel and your fear. Just let go and be sincere.