I've always suffered in one way or another. I'm not sure what my life would be like without suffering. I had a priveledged childhood, but my family was very uptight, conservative and all about appearances. My dad is a high powered attorney and my mom is a psychologist, so whenever I wandered outside what they considered the norm my mom would analyze me and my dad would shame me. Being a highly creative and eccentric type in that kind of family always caused me a lot of mental suffering.