A few months back, I took a Family Connections Course to help me understand my daughter who suffers from depression, anxiety and traits of borderline personality disorder. It helped me parent her and make my life easier instead of fighting with her all the time.

During my course, one of the skills I learned was Radical Acceptance. It helped me understand that my daughter wasn't able to go to school right now, and that that was okay. There's plenty of time later for that as we work towards getting her the help she needs.

Using all my skills has helped us but I still relapsed in depression myself.

So I'm sitting here today thinking what can I do to help myself?

How can I use Radical Acceptance to help myself accept my depression? Personally, relapsing was very hard for me to take. I was so proud of myself for recovering from Major Depression the first time and not taking anti-depressants anymore. Having depression right now is hard. It reminds me of my first depression. Makes me panic when I start thinking how bad it was the first time around.

I don't know. Maybe, it's just time for me to accept that depression doesn't make me weak. If it makes me anything, shouldn't it be stronger?

Food for thought as I try to figure out what I can do to help myself recover once again using some of the DBT (dialectical behavior therapy) skills I learned.