Hey Jacky and Just and Coconutzo too

I don't think your dumb, Jacky. I think it is a pondering from a reflective mood, a reality check of sorts. For me, I kind of like the 'equatorial smooth wave'. North Pole being mania and South Pole being depressive. That means I can enjoy the excitement and joy of doing something, without the impulse to take it to a risky level.
My mania requires 'damage control' and cleaning up after going over the line.
A little south of the middle keeps me grounded and in touch with my feelings without the need for isolation and a box of tissues.