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I know it doesn't suddenly make you feel better, but you're definitely not alone in your feelings.

When I read your post, I was surprised because I could have written much of it myself! I'm trying to figure out why I do keep waking up every morning. My last thought at night is often "I wish I could just go to sleep and that would be that."

For now, I'm off all meds and trying to find a way to accept the way things are and keep making it through each day. I'm in the early stages of that process, but I'm hoping my therapist will help me get there.

Thanks for your post - at least I know I'm not alone in my thoughts and feelings.