I also would like to go to sleep and never wake up. But I keep waking up. There are days when I would just like to be done with this life. I have always relied on antidepressants to get me through the dark times, but this time they seem to be doing me no good. I am afraid that what little life I have left will always be like this. Thankfully, I am older and I don't have all that many years left. Sorry to be such a downer, but sometimes it's hard to keep it all inside.