You went a week without contact Rainbow. Now work toward two. Take it a week at a time. Don't get ahead of yourself. You are upset about something that your T said is years down the road.

She's a good T and is being real with you. Therapy should eventually have an end; it always will have an end at some point. The goal is that you are ready when that time comes.

Resist the urge to call her if you can. You don't have to "do" anything about your feelings right now. It's okay to feel what you are feeling, and feelings always pass. Give yourself some time and work on other ways to tolerate the emotions without getting your T fix to stifle the emotions. You like things to always be calm and sweet and feel-good with your T, but I suspect the real work may take a bit of irritant to get you out of your comfort zone. I suspect you'd like to stay in that comfort zone with your T forever, but that really wouldn't be independent progress. So, feel your feelings and know they will settle down to a tolerable level after a good night's sleep. You'll be able to think a bit clearer and with less catastrophizing in your head.

Sorry it is hurting right now. But it's okay that it does.