Well I am starting over again. Fortunately I am going to therapy tomorrow so maybe can get a handle on this. I have seen a doctor for my toe, he is gonna do a 'procedure' on it on the 22nd. Hopefully getting that piece off last night will make me able to leave it alone -- I have it nice and sore now. sigh. Current problem is that I have been having so many stinky flashbacks and get to where I just want to have them stop, NOW not an hour from now.