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Originally Posted by seesaw
I think you are lumping yourself together with people who abuse the system versus people like you and I, who needed welfare (in my case disability) for awhile to get back on our feet, and now we are, and thriving. There is a vast difference between someone who needs a leg up and someone who abuses the system.
Try not to be so hard on yourself for needing help and accepting it. You did the right thing and it helped you.
Seesaw
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I did abuse the system. I basically lived in junk food - snacks and sweets - for weeks on end. My case hasn't fully closed and I've eaten $15 worth of sweets in the past two days. It isn't right, but I can't stop myself.
Not to mention I left home in the first place because I'm a whiny entitled b!tch who couldn't get a job and is the laziest job searcher ever. I was allowed on because I had an advocate who believed my home situation was abusive. It was - I was the abuser. I never should have been allowed on, never should have been given anything. Do you see why I feel like a train wreck of a person?
I've even considered paying back welfare. I ran the numbers: since all I got was temp assistance and food, it comes to about $6000 for 11 months. And that's not counting the four months I didn't get temp because I had a job, or the $400 in leftover FS. But I feel effing horrible so paying it all back seems like a fitting punishment.
I wasn't getting on my feet either. I was getting my start in life and being lazy.