I came here because I need guidance and I honestly don't know what else to do. I don't want people to feel bad for me or treat me different in real life so I don't talk to anyone.

I'm 18 years old and I feel like I'm depressed. I've tried telling my parents, but they always think I'm just being ridiculous or overreacting. My problem is I used to be so social with people, never have an issue or anything. Now I seem to be questioning everything I say or even do. I always find myself just ripping myself apart just asking what is wrong with me. This might sound messed up, but I honestly only feel normal when I'm drunk. When I'm high, I feel awful, it's not even enjoyable because I just start thinking about everything that's wrong with me.

Now, I don't abuse drugs or drink, I only use them occasionally, so I do not believe that really is related...just thought it was worth mentioning. I feel like I just started overanalyzing everything I did and I don't know why. I used to be good at talking to people and now my first thought is, "wow they probably think I'm a freak."

I just don't get it. Maybe I am just overeacting, but I've been thinking like this for years now. I never used to be like this...I honestly just don't get it.

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this...I really appreciate it.