Sorry to hear you're going through a tough time with your therapy. I have been reading your posts over time and i think you have gained a lot from your therapy overall, but pain is part of any therapy / relationship / life. You are not alone in this though.
I think your therapist is right that there is always an ending. Not just to therapy but to any relationship. I think a lot of us want lifelong loving relationships, but even those end, though we may not want to consider that. It does hurt but maybe the two of you will be able to work through this together. In the end, I think everyone that we care about is irreplaceable, and the goal of therapy may not be so much to replace your therapist as it is to enrich your own life, so that when this precious relationship ends, you will have gained other precious relationships and experiences that will make the loss hurt less when you look at the bigger picture of your life. At least this is how I view it.
Of course it hurts to know it's your therapist's job when you care about her on a deep, personal level. I think the unique aspect of therapeutic relationships is that they can (and should) be both - both the therapist's job and the therapist's genuine care. I find that difficult to reconcile as a client, too.
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