So glad you found Grannon's videos! I really like Dana of "Thrive After Abuse" as well. I believe she also runs an online support group, so that might be something to consider as your waiting it out on the waiting list (good luck with that by the way.)

You may be interested in Bessel Van der Kolk's amazing (IMO) book "The Body Keeps The Score" - incredible insight as to trauma resulting from childhood abuse, the neuroscience of why/how it affects us as adults, and some therapies to address it. The reviews on Amazon is what led me to taking the plunge and purchase it.

I'm so thankful that the words I offered you were helpful. Many blessings to you.