A part of me just wants to cry and beg you not to leave me. I know you wouldn't if you had a choice but that makes it hard for different reasons. The rules in place to protect are hurting me and that is just illogical. This is ending and I don't think we have fought for it not to. I am not good at giving up without a fight. I am not good at not having a choice. I am not good with ending things that I don't want to. Sad.