I've been through a lot in my adult life, along with my mental health issues I've had a ridiculous number of physical health issues (9 surgeries for endometriosis by the time I was 30, hysterectomy by 26, fibromyalgia...the list goes on) and other struggles along the way. I think this has caused me to become very cynical and not have a lot of sympathy or empathy for other people. It gets worse when I'm in a deep depression or am very manic.
I can often get very irritated (sometimes angry) with people when I feel like they're trying to get sympathy from me, or if they're complaining or emotional about something that's happened to them. For the most part when things happen to me I try to do my best and suck it up and deal with it on my own because my BP has caused a lot of people I've cared about to abandon me. Even though rationally it's a sh**y way to be sometimes I catch myself thinking that what they're complaining about is really minor (even though it might not be minor to them) and that they need to just deal with it and I don't know how to offer them comfort at all. This often makes me feel like a bad person.
Anyone else dealt with these types of feelings?
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Bipolar I
Borderline Personality Disorder
ADHD
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
"You," he said, "are a terribly real thing in a terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why you are in so much pain.”
― Emilie Autumn, The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls
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