I've had 3 Ts - 3 different types of Ts. The first created a situation where I was dependent on her. Emails, phone calls, lots and lots of support. At the time, I was in heaven. I thought that I had found the perfect T who cared about me and loved me and would be there for me. And then she found a new job and closed her practice and left. And while she HAD been supporting me wonderfully during our time together, not once did she help me learn how to help myself during hard times or how to reach out to anyone in my 'real' life for help. My second T taught me why Ts have boundaries around certain things (like outside contact). Of course, I could call her if I needed her - but no texting, no email replies from her. I was frustrated in the beginning and I hated her for her boundaries. I felt they were cold and uncaring. But what I learned was that in the absence of reaching out to T all the time (because I had no choice of contacting T except emergency) I HAD to learn to soothe myself and learn to reach out to those around me. It WAS NOT EASY. But I did it. That T became suddenly ill and had to close her practice with little notice. Though my heart was broken, I was much better equipped to deal with that loss. My current T is a good balance of both of my former Ts. Allows check-in texts when needed, has reasonable boundaries around other types of contact. Has said she cares too much about me to let me become too dependent on her. I've learned by experience that relying on a T is like a crutch to get through a difficult time until I can get back up on my own. If you break your leg, you need a crutch to help you get around, but once your leg heals - even though you might still need rehab for a while - you don't still need to rely on the crutch as much. Good luck Rainbow. It's hard. So. very. hard. I wish you the best of luck and warm hugs and thoughts. Just some things to think about.