It's been awhile since I've been on the board. I'm still a medical experiment. LOL I've been on a couple of more drugs since I've been here and none of them have worked, and in fact, had my first mini manic episode in a year about a month ago due to Buspar. Sigh. Needless to say, I was yanked off of that one.

I've actually felt pretty well depression wise, but the anxiety has been kicking my ***. As you know I also have panic disorder and obsessive thoughts along with the BP. That is where the Buspar came in, to try to help and was supposedly low risk for inducing mania. Uh huh.

Anyway, my Pdoc told me about another patient of hers (not BP, but has major OCD/Intrusive thoughts). They had tried everything to help her. She is a school teacher and her intrusive thoughts were so bad that she hadn't been able to work in a couple of years. My Pdoc had tried every med under the sun to help her. Then, my Pdoc went to a conference and there was a study done on an Alzheimer's med that they found helped with severe OCD. She put this lady on it and she is doing great and went back to work. My doctor said that she is the only one that she has tried this on and asked if I wanted to try it. I said, yes! Well, I've been on it now about 2 weeks. So far, so good. That's a big deal for me, because I have such strong reactions to medications. The only physical side effect I'm having, is fatigue and feeling tired all the time. However, it's helped me cut down on my Benadryl that I take with my other sleep meds.

My anxiety and OCD hasn't been as bad but it's almost like I can't remember what I was thinking or worrying about. It's hazy. Of course, I don't know if that is good either. You would think an Alzheimer's med would help you remember stuff, not for me. Maybe it does the opposite affect for people who don't have Alzheimer's. Who knows. I'm trying to not be too hopeful, because I've been let down so many times on this journey.

I'm about to scroll through all the posts and see what all you great people have been up to! Hugs!