i sent my therapist an email this week. fairly brief. told him that i understood that it was perfectly reasonable that he take time off sometimes... but that i didn't like it. he sent a fairly quick response saying that it made sense to him that i wouldn't like it and that we could figure out why i didn't like it together. or something like that.

i went in for my session today... got up at 6am and caught the bus at 7.10... when i had arrived (time for a quick coffee before going in to see him) i checked my phone and there were a couple of messages on my answerphone. him: 7.13 'sorry but i have to cancel... i'm sorry i'm phoning you so late... i'm sure you don't want to hear excuses... see you next week'.

yeah right.

next week... then he takes two weeks off. i'm going AWOL next week. %#@&#! him. last time i expressed vulnerability to him (e.g., 'i feel hurt and alone and abandoned') he didn't respond for a few weeks. %#@&#! if i'm gonna let him do this to me again. %#@&#! him.