Hindsight is a wonderful thing. I had the opportunity to be open and honest with my care coordinator yesterday. But I wasn't. And I really should have been. Today has been a real struggle and I've only been awake a few hours. And now it's after hours so I guess I wait until tomorrow.

Knowing me, by tomorrow I will have changed my mind again and be glad that I kept my mouth shut. And then once again change my mind when it's too late to call and talk to anyone.

Not really sure why I'm posting, or what I'm even trying to say. I'm just trying to distract myself maybe. I'm trying to calm myself down and keep my mind off of where it keeps winding up, but the minute I stop whatever I'm doing it comes straight back.

Now I don't know what to do. Trying to stop myself doing all the wrong things. Think I just need a bit of support and some hugs maybe.. And maybe even a bit of blunt talking so I stop changing my mind...