So I've had two urgent referrals sent to the psychiatric 'open clinic' here in Gothenburg. One from my psychologist and one from the inpatient hospital psychiatrist. To try to get me an appointment with an outpatient Pdoc that can treat and maintain treatment of my BP. I've already been diagnosed by my psychologist and two different inpatient psychiatrists. I've been waiting over s month for a letter with an appointment time. Average time to get an appointment is three months but with an urgent referral you're supposed to get in within a couple of weeks.

I'm in the midst of a horrible manic episode, been in and out of the hospital on suicide watch this whole time. By law only the open clinic doc can prescribe me drugs to treat my bipolar because they will be the ones looking after me in the future. ERs and inpatient mental facilities here cannot write prescriptions here. They can send you home with say, a day's worth of anxiety and sleep medication but that's about it.

I'm so frustrated and I'm getting to the point I can't handle it anymore. I was going to attempt suicide again last night but my husband found me and has been watching me since. I don't know how to deal with this. The mania has devolved so far into anxiety, anger and panic that I'm afraid I'm starting to lose touch with reality.