I woke up last night 3 hours after falling asleep. I had a sudden idea I wanted to change my major to finance and work on Wall Street. I was going to go to Wall Street parties, wine and dine with major players. I realized something wasn't right so I took an extra Geodon and went back to sleep, but ever since then I've had the idea that I want to study finance and work on Wall Street. The thing is, when I first started college last fall, it was for finance, and I hated it so I switched. And I'm happier now. I just keep getting the idea all day today that I'm supposed to work on Wall Street, even though that wouldn't be the best thing for my illness, and it's probably highly unlikely. I see my pdoc in two days. But part of me now wants to switch back to finance. I love numbers, but that still doesn't equate a job in finance. I'm just worried because it seems like every time I have a mood episode I change my mind on what I want to do. And I'm a very rapid cycler so hypomanic and manic episodes happen frequently. It's just part of me still thinks this is really me that has the dream of working on Wall Street. Idk. Hopefully my pdoc ups my Topamax dose soon.