Well I told the new T. Only because he asked me point blank if I cut this week.

He handled it very well- better than I thought he would.

But when he asked me about coping rather than cutting, and about calling someone (like him) when I'm feeling like that, I tried to tell him that I can't call someone to talk to at 3am. His response was to tell me to call campus police.

Is there a SINGLE soul out there who would actually call campus police rather than cut on yourself? lol! Yeah freakin' right!

Aside from 3am urges to cut, new T says to call him when I want to cut, but he also said that if I call him too much it will be a problem. So naturally I don't want to rely on him at all. I would hate to rely on him only to find that I goofed and did it too much, ya know?

Anyway, I survived. He set up another appointment for this week- on Thursday. Hope that one goes ok, too. As a general rule lately, I've felt worse coming out of therapy with him than I did going in, but that wasn't the case today so maybe Thursday will be ok, too.

Thanks for listening
Angela