I had felt kind of the same way you do rainbow. My T meant everything to me (still does) and I had this unhealthy thought that I would always be in therapy with her no matter what. It was very sudden and out of the blue when she told me she got a new job and was closing her practice. I fell apart when she told me. You still have lots of time left. I had two months to get used to the fact that she was leaving and that might seem like a long time but it really wasn't. Make use of your time. Cherish every session. Work on the most important things and really enjoy having her as a T. Some day it will end but the more you enjoy now and the more you can learn to be more independent and not need her, the end will be better for you. I didn't have time to get more independent and not need her. I went from having her support to nothing overnight and its been hard to adjust to say the least. I had a fantastic T who changed my life and I don't regret becoming close to her. Her love and our relationship has been so healing and its in my heart forever. We still keep in touch and I am so grateful for that. I hope you can have the same. No one is suggesting you replace her and you can't replace people. You just have to learn a new way of having her in your life. Don't panic right now. Worrying about something you can't change means you don't enjoy the present moments. She is still your T and you have her support. That should make you happy and hopeful. You are lucky to have her. I hope you can enjoy your time with her and all the present moments. I really wish I was given more time with mine.