Thanks everybody!
I saw my pdoc yesterday, and we're going to try another med on top of what I'm already taking. That's cool, I don't mind. Meds don't bother me as much as the thought that's it's "just me".

I got to go visit a buddy and help him sort out some of his dad's fishing gear. That was good. I like seeing friends, if it's the ones who don't mind when I'm down. Some people don't want to deal with it, so I just don't bother them. some people are really good friends, and I can hang out even when I don't feel good.

My T thinks some of this is meds (therefore, the pdoc) and some of it is "situational" 'cause I've got a lot going on right now - lots of life crap. I wish I were better at all that life stuff. Sometimes I'm OK, just not all the time, and not too much at once.

it helps to remember that I'm better than I was. I used to be really bad off, and now I'm mostly stable, kinda. I'm glad I can come here and talk to you guys and read about everybody else, and then I don't feel so bad.
Thanks!