Hi, Phae!

Ditto what PlanningtoDie said about being cruel not giving you other options/coping mechanisms besides cutting. I have tried a variety of methods...the basically only fail proof one that works for me is to go into my car (I love my car) and either listen to music in the car or drive around, carefully, and stay out of harms way until I feel better - which for me takes at least three hours. I remember there being times when none of this worked and I just couldn't think of anything else. Thankfully, it has gotten a little easier some days....I journal about what is bothering me and then since I have dealt with the "feelings" for at least a little while, I allow myself to be distracted whether it be reading, walking, or talking on the phone which I usually love to do.

I can TOTALLY relate to the hurt associated with being ignored. Recently, I have dealt with abandonment issues over the past 7 years by my own identical twin sister. Now, this week, I have just come to the realization that four of my "good" friends only talk to me when their husbands are not around. Kind of like, I am only an afterthought. It hurts that they don't seem to place the same value on our friendship that I do. On the other hand, there might be a lot in their lives that I don't know about which may explain this. Still it is important for me to express to them how I feel instead of swallowing it all up. (I've only been able to do this with one of the four and kind of laughed it off as I did it).

I am trying to appreciate the fact that at least they spend a little time with me...I guess that is better than none at all. Still again, easier said than done.

Please keep visiting...it does me a great deal to be able to come and read...wishing you well!!

Donna