Hi, I'm Alyx and this is my first post.
I'm 15 and have had depression since 12. Recently in the past couple of months I've had urges to peel the skin off my face or be skinned. I don't know why. I'll grab at my face and try to rip my cheeks off. I'll wish for someone to take a knife to me and skin me alive. I can't see a therapist or anything like that, because I would have to ask my parents, and they think my depression is caused by social media (even though it's not) and they would take my phone away, which is the only way I can talk to my one friend who actually bothers trying to help. Is there a name for this desire? What's wrong with me?