Well I've never seemed to have self-esteem issues in the past,but in the past year it's just been really bad.Im 20 years old and have no drivers license,because I have no desire to drive and I live in a small town where it isn't necessary,and no job.I had gotten accepted to college straight out of high school but the expenses were overwhelming even with all the financial aid so I decided not to attend.Ive been looking for work but like I mentioned I live in a small town where work is limited,plus I'm actually afraid of getting out there and having embarrassing panic attacks.When I went to high school I would often have them,and my teacher would let me step out but I highly doubt that would acceptable at a job.My friends,family,and even others have said really hurtful comments about me and my predicament such as I'm a loser who will always stay at home with my mom forever,or I'm such an embarrassment to the family and I know it's all true.I hate the way my life is playing out and no matter how hard I try to change it,I always seem to fail.I don't even feel I have any self-esteem anymore because I can honestly say I hate who I am and don't feel as though I can ever accept the person I am.