Please know that what I'm about to say is done so with all due respect and care: you cannot expect others to be trustworthy if you aren't entirely trustworthy yourself. You do not seem to trust yourself enough to make many decisions on your own. People see this and, you're not going to like this but it's not attractive, especially to the type of person who is truly relationship-material. Take responsibility for your own attitude. Take charge of your own life by becoming more self-sufficient. Instead of depending on others for all the answers, try looking deep inside and see if you can come up with the answers yourself. Be realistic. Then life will truly open up for you. Many of us here would love to give you tips. Please don't be so quick to rebuff what I or anyone else is saying here just because it's not what you want to hear.

Until you deal with your issues, I can say with 100% certainty that you're not going to get anywhere substantial in the relationship arena. Please think on this.