I'm sorry you're in such pain HalloweenSkye.

If you've done the hospital thing and it doesn't work, tell them it doesn't work. What is it you're looking for? Just someone to talk to you?

I have a psychologist I've been talking to. It's talk therapy. Usually makes me feel better. Can you do something similar with a Crisis Hot Line if you don't have access to someone just to talk to.

Don't give up!