I think my mental illness has some genetic cause...not just that... but all my male cousins[7] had serious mental/behavior problems including 2 early deaths...

so did I have anything to do with my parents having me....I had no choice...
I have to live with what genes I got...
and yet my family looked down on those that had a mental illness..
it was something you either didn't talk about or you made fun...

made fun....wow..what a screwed up family...it looked good from the outside...
so here I am now an old screwed up psychiatrist...still struggling with having a mental illness...I have really caused a lot of stress on my wife...she doesn't understand...I don't think she can...this mental illness thing is not pretty...especially if you have no money