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Originally Posted by Ellahmae
She has talked about how I am the only client it feels right with (still wondering if it's her needs getting met as well since I've been called the daughter she never had.... another story). She has mentioned how she has clients try to hug her and come in her space and she has to tell them no because it makes her uncomfortable (she doesn't say to the actual client it makes her uncomfortable but goes the why do you feel that way, blah blah blah route). It does make me feel special and nice that it is natural and doesn't bother her to do it with me. I read people ridiculously well so if she was uncomfortable I would know it, and she's not. I would say 75% of the time she reaches out first. I am the only one she touches in therapy or is allowed in her 'space'.
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I am worried about it being about his needs. Looking back on the session I remembered him saying (before I mentioned touch) "can you get in touch with what those feelings are? Touch - a bit of a clue there" so I wondered if this is something he was already wanting to raise, but I don't know. Also he mentioned T1 hug rejection, and he has said in the past he felt slightly competitive with T1 in the beginning. He's also admitted to paternal feelings towards me.
But I know he's very self-aware; he's even written a book on the unconscious of the therapist and its effect on therapy. So I do trust him. It's hard to work out.