Clearer, I'd say. Clearer. Not clear. And just maybe. But maybe some really have a clear picture. I don't. BP is easier in comparison: when I say clearer, it's (mostly) just clearer for others, but even that's a façade.

I find it horribly confusing. I can't think about it without feeling overwhelmed and angry, wanting to express the inexpressible, complex, irrational.