Dear ScientiaOmnisEst:
If at least some of the time spent on welfare was used to improve yourself, it wasn't totally terrible; there are people (crony capitalism) who have abused the system more. Sounds like you've had some financial stress. Just use the welfare to give yourself a chance to get on the right path. If you've hurt others, try to make it up. If that's not possible then do no more harm. Keep searching for peace and be brave!
Sincerely,
Myst