Hi Pastelcapricorn,

I'm soooooo sorry to hear how much pain you feel.
It's hard, but I think no one can completely understand another person. You need to be inside their head and emotions to do that, and I'm not sure I understand myself so I don't fancy anyone else's chances.

I'm glad your Dad seems to be trying to understand.

My feeling is that seeing a psychologist is a good place to start. It's not easy, you have to work hard, but it may well help you get back on an even keel.

Good luck, I hope you get the support you need.