Hello pfeffa: The Skeezyks is also married to someone who is his best, & only, friend... who doesn't know the half of what goes on in his mind (& who really doesn't want to...) The Skeezyks is not ashamed. But he is irretrievably perplexed.

How did all of this come to be? He doesn't have a clue. It all just is what it is.
The Skeezyks celebrates the progress you have made, pfeffa.