I'm so far from perfect and never thought there was even any such thing as perfect. But, yes, he is a perfectionist. Said he doesn't want to do anything unless he can be perfect, and that was part of this problem.

Today, I spoke to the lawyer. He asked me "What did he do over all these years to repair the problem?" I said he only made empty promises.

So now I am going to move with my son as soon as school is over. The lawyer is standing by. I told my husband that's the plan, to separate for the summer, then see about finalizing divorce.

My sister told me she doesn't believe I'll do it. I have initiated divorce twice before and took him back. He swore he'd change and he didn't. I hate what I have become in this situation. It's ridiculous. I have a lot of fear to conquer and be strong and stop this insanity by getting out.