jbug, going back to where you saw Steve must have been so hard to do. I can see how it would make everything seem so final and I am positive I would feel like crying too.

It is nerve-wracking starting with a new therapist. She'll help you to find your words when you go. She'll know a little about you from the transferred records; that will be a kind of bridge from here to there and between her and you. You can ask her how she would like you to address her and then you'll know.

You're doing so good. Sometimes after such a shock it is so hard just to put one foot in front of the other.

Do you see your new therapist soon?