I've had the same pdoc for 14 years and same psychologist for 10. They know me very well. They also both know that I am better off knowing that my illness is severe than blaming myself for failing to manage it better. So we go through this every so often when I start falling apart and insisting I'd be fine if I just handled things differently. That particularly has been true with my longing to work but being unable to do it. I worked very hard to work as long as I could and having to give that up and then sell my house and move next door to my mom really was hard for me to accept and I really needed to have help to accept that I was going to be ok again and that I hadn't failed.