Hey, you are much better at it now than you were a few years ago, Granite. Give yourself some credit. You've come a LONG way. Your first obstacle was just being able to speak. Now that you can speak, your new obstacle is that you now really know you can speak about what is on your mind, but the idea verbalizing the truth about your life is scary. This is the next stage in the hard work of your therapy. You can do it.