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So I tried to talk to my T about this today, and it did not go the way I thought it would. I think I wanted T to say "walk in. Smile. Say hello. etc." But she did not. Instead she told me that i'm not obligated to make other people happy. I did not want to hear this and felt that she was completely missing my point. But then she made the point that she and I have a good relationship, as have I with my few friends and that i'm not incapable of being nice, but that perhaps, instead, as I get healthier - i'm outgrowing my environment. She said that sometimes the only thing you can give is empathy. Through most of the conversation, I was kind of ready to say forget it. You're going off on these deeper tangents when that isn't at all what I wanted to hear. But as we unraveled a bit, I kind of considered that maybe the answer isn't necessarily something I want to hear but need to hear. I really don't know.
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A majorly depressed, anxious and dependent, schizotypal hypomanic beautiful mess ...[just a rebel to the world with no place to go... ]
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