Well, I've been on Citalopram for just over 3 weeks now.

I think my mood started improving a little itself, because the negative thoughts largely subsided during the first week. Perhaps because I have stopped beating myself up about starting smoking again.

I'm still lacking a fair bit of motivation although I am managing to fill my days now & am enjoying things more. (mostly just watching TV all day but still... that's something)

Only downside is my anxiety is still playing up, not helped by the Citalopram making me feel tired during the day & not able to sleep well at night. Also been feeling a bit weak at times but I think that's side effects + lack of sleep + anxiety.

I've skipped my dose this morning & will be having it tonight instead to see if that helps.

As long as I adjust to the meds, I think it should work ok. My main concern now is just over my psychosis which is playing up a little but I'm hopeful that's just the anxiety exacerbating that. Otherwise that means I'll be back on APs too.

So I think I can tentatively say things are starting to look up.