I understand how you feel, but this forum is safe. I joined this forum because I am too afraid of allowing others to know about my MIs due to their whacky, uneducated, and harmless viewpoints on mental and medical health. Blame it on their Spiritualist backgrounds and beliefs. And I barely speak about my MIs with family anymore because the conversations never help. They say the same things; I say the same things. Nothing positive comes from it. Nowadays I work with my psychologist and psychiatrist, and I know that at least makes my life less difficult.

This is a safe place. Seriously.

But why say ninety-nine percent of the people on this forum are fine?

Edit: Since I have joined all these beautiful people have saved me from digging into myself further into a hole. In their hearts, they show genuine concern and love for others. If you fail to feel safe here, maybe you should take a vacation from the forum? That might help a little, plus if you have a therapist you can explain your situation, and he/she can work with you. And ignore people that try to harm you with their typed out words. They try to spit fire, but they will choke on the smoke. Trust me.